New Hair Journey: Returning to Natural After Twenty Years

Image showing Shuna Rae with relaxed hair on left and natural hair on right.

I always told myself, “love your relaxed hair and watch it flourish.”

It was 2010 when I decided to finally take charge of my hair and grow it long and healthy. For most of my life, my hair had been nothing but trouble; it was hard to shampoo and condition, and even harder to style. Coupled with a relaxer that was placed on my hair from five-years-old until last year, my hair was in a constant state of “what the heck is going on.” I wanted – no, needed- to make a change after years of feeling inadequate about it. I was about to start college full-time, and I knew I wanted to start it on a good note.

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Protective Style Files: Yarn Twists

“It’s now time for me to protect my hair.”

Do you all feel that chill in the air? No? Me either. I blame climate change. Anyway, here in my city, we’re having a few cooler days, and it’s now time for me to protect my hair. A few summers ago, I rocked Marley twists and I LOVED it. I wanted something a little lighter than Marley twists, so I journeyed to Youtube and rediscovered yarn twists. Initially, I tested out the idea of yarn braids and yarn locs, but my heart settled on yarn twists. This was a new style for me, and I knew I couldn’t do a protective style and not give my review of it for you all. Let’s not waste more time and get right into prepping my hair, the install, and the removal process of my twists.

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Winterizing Your Life: Series Reboot Announcement

I always have ideas of doing another series of “themed” posts on my blog. I introduce them to you all, and then I never follow through. But, back in my early days of blogging, I did a series of posts on my blog called, “Winterizing Your Life.” In this series, I talked about my favorite hair products for fall/winter, skincare, and body products. I even planned on doing a winter lookbook with all of my favorite pieces for fall/winter. After looking back at my old posts, I decided I want to revamp that series. I can tell you now that my products have changed over the years, and I have a little bit more knowledge about my favorites as well. I think this would be a good way to get back into the swing of things as we approach the end of the year.

Now, I will say this; I will try my best to get a new post up for this series at least once every week or so. I’ve shared before that I’m working towards my Master’s degree, as well as studying for a certification test. Those things take precedence over blogging, but I’m not going to leave you all hanging like I usually do. I want to finish this year strong in all of my endeavors, including blogging. I hope you’ll stick around.

The first official post for this series will come this week, hopefully, tomorrow. It’ll be a cool day here in my city, and that always inspires me to blog. If these series goes well and you all enjoy more series like this, I will do more series like this. Let me know what you guys would love to see here on the blog! I’d love to speak with you all more. See you soon!

Talks With Shuna Rae: Life Update

Hey.

I don’t have a plan for the flow of this post. I have a tendency to want to plan exactly what I will write and how I want to portray my voice through the words I write. I’m not going to do that with this post. I have a multitude of thoughts running through my head and I just want to share them to get them out of my mental space. If you read this, I appreciate you. If you don’t, I still appreciate you. But I have to release these thoughts before they eat me alive.

After seven long years filled with troubles, I’ve finally gained my bachelor’s degree this past July. It’s been a long, hard, irritating road, but I’m finally got a diploma that has had blood, sweat, and tears drowning it. It’s bittersweet, this feeling. I’m excited to move on from undergrad to redeem myself in graduate school, but I’m unhappy. I’m unhappy because I feel like I’ve done this to myself. I never expected to take seven years to gain my degree; I wanted to finish in four. But, God didn’t have that planned out for me, and for that, I’m grateful. I’ve learned a lot during this time; I hate sitting in a classroom for lectures, my procrastination still hasn’t gotten better since I began middle school, and it’s okay to ask for help when you need it. I’m stubborn as all hell and for a long time, I refused to ask for help. But when I couldn’t do it alone anymore…I had to reach out. I thank God for my mama, man. She’s the best.

Now, I’m done with my first term of graduate school and I’m trying not to feel overwhelmed. Not only am I working on to successfully pass ALL of my graduate classes, I’m doing everything in my power to boost my résumé. Y’all…it’s hard. I know something worth having is going to be hard; trust me, I get it. But when my anxiety and depression start kicking in…it can be terrible. Right now, I’m not happy with anything I’m doing in my life. I hate school because I don’t have the focus for it (though I am praying for it). I hate working towards something that will make me money but doesn’t bring me joy. And here’s the thing; I don’t truly know what I enjoy. I don’t know what I get happiness from and it bothers the hell out of me. I enjoy video games, but I don’t see myself making a career out of it. I’m the same way with hair and makeup. I love writing stories; it’s been my passion since I was in middle school, but I cannot write well enough to make a great book. I’m constantly trying to tell myself that it’s okay to not know what I want to do, but the fact of the matter is…it isn’t. I’m twenty-five years old; I can no longer just sit here not knowing what the hell I want to do with my life. I want to be married soon; I want children soon. How can I provide for them when I can’t figure out what the hell I want to do with my life?

Let’s not even get into my mental health. Y’all, I have been spiraling with depression since 2010. I have mostly good days, but when those depressive days hit, they’re hard as hell. I don’t feel like doing anything or even leaving my bed. I do what I can to function so that I don’t seem like such a lazy bum, but damn it, I want to scream and cry and stomp my feet as loud as I can to get this feeling away from me. I don’t talk about these things because I don’t want to be judged nor coddled. I just want to get better. I want to be better. My feelings are all over the place as I’m writing this. I’m happy, sad, angry, anxious, and depressed all at the same time. Am I going through a mid-life crisis here? Are these feelings that other mid to late twenty years old experience, but we suffer in silence under the guise of having our lives together?

I know that there are other things I could talk about on here that would make other happier; I have blog posts to write about skincare routines, makeup loves, and new hairdos. I have blog posts to write about my favorite movies, video games, and other entertaining things. But I don’t care about those right now; I don’t think I care about anything right now. And that alone is scary and troubling, to say the least. I don’t want to be like this; I want to care about something, anything, other than my own depressing thoughts. I want to feel like a human again with their entire lives in front of them. I guess I’m just in a slump and I can’t find my way out of it…

I feel like I’m leaving so much I want to say out…I apologize for that. My mind is going a mile a minute, and it’s draining. Hopefully soon, I’ll be back to studying for my CAPM exam at the end of the year, and making strides to starting my business and/or finding my passion soon. Until then, I’m in this bubble. Please, if you are praying people…pray for my mental health. I need all of the help I can get. Thank you all for reading. I hope this isn’t too depressing for you to read and that it doesn’t ruin your day. I would hate that. My regular content will be up soon; I have time before I start my next school term next week, so I will have time to get a few posts in before school gets crazy. I’ll talk to you guys again soon. Have a blessed day, y’all.

50 Facts About Me

I’m an avid Youtube watcher. I probably watch Youtube videos more than I should, and I can always find something (or someone) new to watch. One of my favorite types of videos to watch are the “50 Facts About Me” tag videos, especially if the content creator is someone I want to know more about. I don’t think I’ve ever done something like this on my blog, so I want to do one right now. Maybe you all will learn something interesting about the woman behind this blog. In the comments, tell me something about yourself that you don’t mind sharing; I would love to get to know you as well!
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Updated Skin Care Routine (Normal/Dry Skin)

Hey, my loves! It’s been a while, as I always say. One day, I’ll do a life update to let you know why I’m always leaving without a word. But today, I want to share with you all my updated skin routine. If you’ve been here for a while, you would know that I have dry skin. Right now, my skin is more on the normal/dry side (a blessing in disguise), so I’ve changed my routine to be more moisturizing and light for the springtime. I have been purchasing and testing out new products, incorporating it into my skincare routine, and I am loving the result. Here is my current routine for the Spring and Summertime.

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Favorite Lip Products of Fall 2016

Hey guys! Since fall is here, I thought it would be only right that I shared with you my favorite lip treatment and lip stains for the fall time. I love the fall season, especially when I have an excuse to pull out my darker and richer toned lipsticks for my everyday makeup looks. Fall time is also when I bring out my warmer and smokier eyeshadow looks, but more on that in another post. Some of these products are new right now and are limited edition. Others were limited edition when they were released, but I’m sure there are dupes out there from other brands. If you like a certain lip product I feature that’s no longer available, try checking out www.temptalia.com for swatches and dupes. This is my favorite resource for finding dupes to products that were limited edition. So, without wasting any more time, let’s get into my favorite lip products!

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REVIEW: Leven Rose 100% Pure Organic Jojoba Oil

Hey guys! Today, I finally want to share a review on a product that I have been using for about the last 6 months-1 year. I have a thing for purchasing oils on Amazon that could be good for both my hair and skin. I have been reading many articles about jojoba oil, and I figured that it would be an interesting oil to add to my hair oil collection. When I wear protective styles, my scalp tends to get very dry and keeping it moisturized can be hard. I have been reading that jojoba oil is very similar to our scalp’s natural sebum. With a dry scalp, I don’t have a lot of sebum, so I have to add to the little I do have. After a while of researching, I finally broke down and purchased Leven Rose 100% Pure Organic Jojoba Oil from their Amazon store. I think I’m finally ready to review this product for you all. Let’s get into it.
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Summer Skin Care Routine

Hey y’all! I’m not going to fake the funk: I do not have great skin. I have enlarged pores on my cheeks, hair all over my face, and a mild, yet annoying, case of hormonal acne. My skin is dry and flaky, and aged looking. Listen, I’m only in my mid-twenties. I’m at the stage of my life where eye serums, facial creams, intense moisturizers, and a dermatologist should be in my future. However, I’m one of those #brokemillennials, so I can’t afford high end skin care or a dermatologist. Times like this, I wish I was an esthetician already. Anyway. I’m here to share my skin care routine for the summer, as I am actively trying to get my skin under control. From my face to my toes, I want luscious, beautifully melaninated skin, and now is the time to start. Let’s get started.
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My 2016 Skin Care Routine

Hey y’all! 2016 is the year of skin for me, so I thought it would be a good idea to share with you all the skincare routine I began in late 2015 to figure out what my dry skin likes and dislikes.  As I dive deeper into finding my perfect routine, I want to share with you all my progress and findings. So, let’s get right into it.
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